My letter to Kensleigh

Don't ever forget that you are unique. Be your best self and not your worst imitation of someone else. Find your strengths and use them in a positive way. Don't let people ridicule the choices you make. Travel the road that you have chosen and DO NOT look back with regret. Remember that there is plenty of time to travel another road, and another, and still another in your journey through life. Take the time to find the route that is right for you. You will learn something valuable from every trip you take, so don't be afraid to make mistakes. Tell yourself that you are ok just the way you are and make friends who respect your true self. Always remember to love God, yourself, family and friends, in that exact order! You will never be able to love anybody if you don't love you first. Talk to God everyday and thank him for your presence and each and every blessing you've received, you are currently receiving, and thank Him in advance for the blessings yet to come. Take the time to be alone too, so that you know just how terrific your own company can be. Remember that being alone doesn't always mean being lonely; it can be a beautiful experience of finding your own creativity, your heart felt feelings, and the calm and peace deep inside you. Don't ever forget that you are special and you have within you the ability to do whatever it is you seek out to do. All these things won't be taught to you in public school. You won't read them in a text book. And you will be judged based upon how you look, your gender, or for whatever reason the judger sees fit. BUT, as long as you remember this letter from Mommy, you will be just fine. Never give up on you and ALWAYS believe in you. I did from the moment I heard your heartbeat.

Unconditional love,
Mommy

The Love I know

I miss him so much!
His touch, his kiss, his everything, I must...
Speak with him right now...
Wish I could recieve the lust
He places upon me when he's near, I trust....
His love for me is real in every way.
Like no other he makes me feel extra everyday!
I love you baby, you are my all and I am yours.
All day long the rhythm of our songs
Are compatible, damn near like one.
We are what a multitude of people strive to be.
Steps, breaths, and risks taken together like we like it see...
We are one!
You might not understand but I do.
Fall in love, and I promise
You are guaranteed to feel it too!

My Baby Girl: Kensleigh Paige Florence

This is my pride and joy! The highlight of my life! I love her so much! She was born at 7lbs 6oz...18 inches long. Of course she isn't that weight in this pic. being that she's almost 3 months old now. Today was her 2nd day of daycare and she was so good!!!!!! She didn't cry at all! I'm so proud of her. She's almost 3 months old now and she's growing so fast! Seems as though I just had her yesterday. I can't wait to watch her grow more. Teach her all the things my mother and grandmother instilled in me. Motherhood is amazing and I cannot wait to see what else it has in store for me! Mommy loves you Kensleigh!!!!!!

I Stand Alone

In a world of chaos, I stand alone, by myself.
Torn and twisted, all the hope of the future mingles
With the pain of the past creating the bittersweet present.
When the laughter fades, I must laugh alone
With no one else.
Secrets never misunderstood
For they linger on my lips forever unspoken.
Eternally damaged, broken.
Longing for some unknown answers to a silent question.
I stand alone, damaged goods in a beautiful box,
The part of my soul that remained unscarred
Stays sheltered from it all, watches as I wander this world, lost.
When love no longer matters,
My heart will beat alone, by itself.
When the world turns against me,
There is one solution left for me to follow through.
To show everyone just how strong I can be,
I must fight . . . fight . . . fight . . . until the end,
For the entire world to see.
When there is no hope left,
And my world has turned upside down,
I must stand by myself,
To stand my own ground.