Don't Quit

This past weekend, I expressed to my mother and aunt how much I hated my job and the fact that I was ready to get the hell out of that place under any circumstance! Now that I reflect back upon that conversation, I realize exactly how ungrateful I was becoming. When I first got the opportunity to move to Dallas, I was ecstatic. I saw all of the positive perks that came along with the job. (i.e. the pay, tuition reimbursement, wonderful benefits, the opportunity to make my mom proud, just something new and different) I've been here almost a year now, and I find myself complaining about this place more and more. For one, the people at my job make my stomach turn. They don't seem to acknowledge my opinion because I don't have this high class degree. BULLSHIT! I consider myself to be very intelligent, plus I know my job like the back of my hand. Therefore, I will not be patronized and treated like shit. Secondly, my boss has to find something wrong with everything I do just so he can reiterate the fact that he is the boss. Okay, I know he's my boss and I would never go beyond him and do something that I know isn't right. Why does he constantly criticize everything I do? Now, the things aformentioned have occured on more than one or two occasions and after a while, I began to get fed up. The "positive perks" drifted away from my mind and I began to see the negatives. I was to the point where I wanted to quit, pack up my shit, and be gone without thinking twice about it. Seriously. But, as I sit here and type this blog, I realize that no matter how bad things may seem, quitting is not an option unless a better opportunity comes along. Period. I would love to go and be with my family right now. I want that more than anything in the world, but at the same time my responsibilities will remain even if my job doesn't. If I made the decision to quit before having a back-up plan, I'd be slapping the shit out of myself in a month asking why I did what I did. So, I guess the lesson I've learned from this is to appreciate what you have. Be greatful for it because it can be taken away without warning. Understand that people will be people and unfortunately we do have some assholes in this world. But guess what, assholes have to work too. You will more than likely come in contact with one of them on a daily basis with any job you take on. If you feel yourself about to break, take a break. Pray. Ask God to give you the strength to get through. Do not act until you have really made time to think things through. I guarantee your mind will change when you weigh out the pros and cons.

Knock, Knock...Knock

Ok, so I have a crazy deranged neighbor! Apparently he and his wife just separated and ever since then he has been acting really strange and scary. Just a plum damn fool! It all started two weeks ago when he knocked on my door at 4 o'clock in the damn morning asking if we saw anybody coming up the stairs. Okay, who in the hell is up watching their stair way at 4 in the morning? Gotta be kidding me!? Anyway, he begins to apologize but said that someone taped a full, used condom to his door. Now, that is fucking gross first of all. Secondly, nobody wants to hear that shit! Especially not me. The next day he knocks again. This time it's about 9:00pm and he wants to know if my cousin and I want to go see Friday 13th. Uh, no! We don't know yo ass! Well, we didn't say it like that, but we said no. Last night, guess what? Another knock! But this time, it scared me. The first time he knocks it's about 11pm. He wants to know if I have some pain killers. I politely said no and sat back on the couch since I was having a case of insomnia last night. So, 15-20 minutes go by and here comes another knock. My stupid ass answers. Now he says, "uh, do you want to come over and we can order a pizza?" I was like,"No thanks. I'm asleep and it's too late for you to be knocking at my door." He said okay, apologized, and left. Why the fuck was he knocking 15 minutes later again!!!!! This time, I didn't answer. I walked to the door and said "Look! Stop knocking on my fucking door! I am trying to sleep and I don't know you so you need to back the fuck off before I call the police!". Here he goes, "I just wanted to know if I could come in for a minute. Just for conversation." OMG!!! At this point I'm furious, but at the same time terrified because I don't know this dude or what he's capable of doing. So, I stomped around the apartment really quick and came back to the door like I had gone to get something. I said, "I told you to leave me alone. Now, I have my gun right here ready to blow your fucking head off. If you do not leave right now, that's exactly what I'm going to do. Do you understand?!" He didn't say anything, but I heard him go into his apartment and close the door. Now this guy is either mentally ill or just plain crazy! It has to be one of the two. Whatever it is, I don't like the shit. I've reported him to the main office and if he knocks on my door again, I'm calling the police...No questions asked. What the fuck is wrong with people???

15 Year Old Beaten By Police

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http://link.brightcove.com/services/link/bcpid1543292903/bctid14370236001

"Seattle is a-buzz -- rightfully so -- over video footage that has surfaced of a King County Sheriff's deputy thrashing a teenage girl as she was confined in a holding cell. The beating took place November 20 of last year and was captured by a security camera. Once discovered, the video became instrumental in the misdemeanor assault case against Deputy Paul Schene.
The girl in question, unnamed because she's a minor, was arrested while riding as a passenger in her parents' car. The car had been reported stolen.

According to the Seattle Post-Intelligencer: The video shows Schene and Brunner as they escorted the girl into the holding cell. Schene had asked her to remove her basketball shoes, and, as she slipped out of her left shoe, she appeared to kick it at Schene.

Schene then lunged through the door and kicked her, striking either her stomach or upper thigh area, court documents say. He pushed her against a corner wall before flinging her to the floor by her hair. He then squatted down on her and made "two overhead strikes," although it's unclear where the blows landed. The detective who reviewed the video said it appeared Schene and Brunner had the girl under control when Schene struck her. Schene, who is 6 feet 2 and weighs 195 pounds, did not explain his action to investigators, court documents say. He and the girl exchanged words. Brunner said she was "real lippy" after being informed she was under arrest and called them "fat pigs."

The Sheriff's Office policy manual says deputies should use physical or deadly force only when "necessary to effect an arrest, to defend themselves or others from violence, or to otherwise accomplish police duties according to law."

NOTE:
Again! This is what I am talking about when I say police try to use their authority to justify some of the malicious crimes they commit! Now his ass needs to be in fucking jail!

Thank you!

I just want to take this time out to show appreciation for everyone that continues to love and support me.

Mama - You are my rock! I love you more than words can express. Thank you for always having my back, your wonderful words of encouragement when I'm down and out, and your willingness to always be there in time of need. I have the world's greatest mother!

Uncle Eddie - You are amazing! Thank you for always listening to my problems. You are the uncle I'm closest to and I appreciate you understanding me as a person and always calling me your #1 niece!

Uncle Tim - You really are the ideal husband, father, uncle, brother, etc. You possess the same qualities that I want my future husband to have. Thank you for always taking care of me and treating me like I was your own. I love you so much for that! But what you can do is stop with all the sarcasm every once in a while! Don't talk about my inability to cook if you aren't willing to teach me! :) You might be able to learn a thing or two from your big brother....Ty!

Uncle Tyrone - Thank you for always bringing family together with your everyday parties! You are so lovable and funny...Bernie Mac Jr. LOL I love you!

Uncle Derrick - You have such a huge heart. You are always willing to give your last. You are so selfless and that alone is admirable! I love you much!

Grandma - I love you for taking care of me when I was a child. You always made sure I had what I needed. You fussed at me a lot, but I more than likely deserved it! I'll love you always and forever!

Jimmy Dean - I love you for taking care of my Grandma the way you do. You always go out of your way to make sure she's okay. I know that when you're around, Grandma doesn't have to worry about a thing!

Aunt Rosalind - Wow! You are such a beautiful person, inside and out! Thank you for all you've done for me. You are a true blessing to the family! Love you!

Ker-Shenda - You are my best friend! I love you to an extent that nobody will ever understand. Thank you for always being there for me even if it was at 3:00 in the morning!

To my cousins: I love you all, but there's too many of ya'll to name separately! I love all of you equally but in different ways. All of you are beautiful and I'm proud of each and every one of you!

My family is awesome! I am so grateful to have been born into such a loving family. All of you rock!!!!!